heavy heart/lamentation

"and as you wish that others would do to you, do so to them" God

"may you always do for others, and let others do for you" Bob Dylan

a lamentation
how do I get him to understand this principal that has served me my whole life?

what have I done wrong to cause his ungratefulness and selfishness....is it my own selfishness????

where o'where are the answers my Lord?

where can I find peace amongst this heartbreak?

where. 

changing someone's heart ranks among the hardest thing to accomplish
yes, they must want to change it, i get it, i understand, but when a heart can do the most simplest of things in showing love and caring for others and someone's selfishness can't see beyond that....that hurts. 

help me Lord. 

help them Lord

help me help them o'Lord. 

Mornings mean COFFEE!!!!!

......Mornings mean God. 

I love God so much. I talk to Him. He listens. He loves me despite everything about me. And there is a lot about me that is not pretty. 

I talk to Him about the people in my life, the people I care deeply about. Not all of those things change when I ask Him to change things. I don't always understand why and I may never understand. That's one of the reasons when He tells me to pray for "understanding", I do. 

This AM I read this amazing passage in the bible. It makes perfect sense. As if you just put the last piece of a puzzle in and the picture is complete. That's what God's word does for me. 

I Hope I don't lose you here - 

"In him was life, and the life was the light of men. "
In Jesus was LIFE and should we choose that LIFE we will have serious crazy insane LIGHT

"The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it"
And that line....speaks for itself. 

May you find God, may you have peace and joy and happiness. Pray for wisdom and understanding. Be light. 

as broken as the world

from pure joy to negative emotions in ten minutes or less.

And the morning starts out ever so beautifully. The morning light working it's way into the day. The wildlife bustling and hustling in their routine.

6AM. wake-up, make coffee, pack for a two day work trip. Prepare a note for mechanic to drop truck off for reinspection, shower, clean truck out (quickly), knock out some minor dishwashing, toss the shedding lilies out till I can get more flowers, rewrite note to repair shop (forgot some things), gently lay with Margaret before leaving, snuggle.

Drive truck to repair shop, walk to Patco enjoying the heavy flurry of snow, make an incredibly positive fb post. Walk with a skip in my step.

Get to train station and wait and wait and wait and wait and begin to lose said skip continuing to wait KNOWING that my 8:42 AM train to DC will not wait and my cushion of 12+ minutes is going away with each passing second.

The train arrives over 20 minutes late.

My mind has totally rearranged my day since the chances of me making my Amtrak train are all but dissipated.

Where did my joy go, that skip in my step that was present not even 20 minutes ago?

I know I still have it, but I totally let a late train negate my joy and my emotions are starting to run rampant.

There was nothing I could do arriving on the 2nd train platform of the day (Septa) with 22 minutes till the Regional Amtrak departs.

It all worked out, it always does. Not worthy of  miracle status or maybe so.

Maybe we need to measure the seconds a little better, maybe it is in the detail of time where we find godly joy.

I stand now, waiting for the Regional Amtrak to arrive.....it's about 3 minutes out, so they say....meanwhile I listen, hoping to notice the seconds as they occur.

today is the day (poetic justice)

yesterday is too late. 

too late, for what is gone. 

let's move forward 

- onward - 

see the moments for what they are 

- MOMENTS -

they are the here, the now. 

tomorrow is not here

tomorrow is a fantasy. 

today is here

today is now

moments are now

take advantage of the moments

let them define you

let them be you

you become them

bask in now

delight in today

for today is not everyday

all we have is now

right now

right here

now

laying down one's life for a friend

There is much here!! What started out as a simple lead into the verse - "Greater love has no one than this, that someone lay down his life for his friends". And then it led to the fact that we are not servants of Christ, but "friends".

And FRUIT - FRUIT - FRUIT - bear fruit. Oh how I hope I am. I think I am. Fruit is usable. Are my actions in the world causing fruit to be developed? Is that fruit for the greater good of God?
I think to worry about this, is, in the words of Solomon - "meaningless". 

If you let Jesus be the "vine", and He is a GOOD vine., and of you are the branch, and you let God prune you as a branch....cutting out portions of YOUR branch, that well....need cutting out. If you let that all happen - you ARE being fruitful. 

Our fruit is not measured by man or by ourselves. For God knows the vine well.....it is his son. And from the vine come the branches.....we, the branches, bearing fruit to glorify God, by loving others and treating them as such as our father treats us. Hallelujah amen, hallelujah amen.

There was a time when I would read God's word and I felt like I was going in circles. None of it would make sense. It happens. But if we actively seek out the truth. We will find it. 100% guaranteed. 

New Study Links Intelligence to Driving Habits

A recent study of New Jersey drivers showed that the use of headlights during dawn, dusk and inclimate weather is a sign of superior intelligence among humans.

Research conducted over 47 years thru diligent observations has been accredited among top philosophers in the Delaware Valley.

Studies further cited that people who use their blinkers within the required 100 feet prior to turning were of the highest IQ level.

The final results are as follows; if a driver exhibits all four of the following traits below, they are a person of uber intelligence.

How many of these do you practice?

a) headlight use at dusk and dawn
b) headlight use during inclimate weather
c) proper 100' blinker use prior to turn
d) snow removal from car roof*
These folks were not only found to be of incredible intelligence, but also, accumulated  great wealth, so much in fact that most had private drivers.



*snow removal from car rooftops was found to be of intelligence equivalent to Albert Einstein