Friday, December 30, 2011

day after precious day

Every day anew, over and over and over and yet they are so very precious.

In an open thought to God...
God, I am so sorry. It seems like the past two years have not been yours, but mine. I do so ever wish I could give them back to you, but I can't. Thank you for giving me today. I will work hard at being nice to others today. I will work hard at not judging others today. Forgive me when I fail Lord....forgive me.

" I was envious of the arrogant when I saw the prosperity of the wicked." Forgive me Father. 
"But for me it is good to be near God; I have made the Lord God my refuge, that I may tell of all your works" Psalm 73

Thursday, September 08, 2011

back in the saddle

Tonight a friend, Brett is getting a liver. An eight hour operation. Hard to believe. I take my liver for granted. I take life for granted. It always seems to be there.....even though I know one day it won't.

What would we give for a day? One day. One 24 hour day. What is the value. Isn't it time to stop taking these days begrudgingly and start taking them and giving thanks?

I am on the 8:45 train home from DC. I had dinner with Quig @ Verenda. He had the lamb shank and I had the filet. It was pouring rain. We both arrived soaked to the bone. We talked...really he listened. I am thankful for him. I love him. He is a good man, a good friend, a believer and yes that believer part makes a difference. It gives us a bond, a common truth that is not shaken.

It's a crowded train. a different crowd then the 9-5er's. A working crowd. A smiling crowd. It is a good crowd. A crowd of people that are living life and enjoying today. What would you give for a day?

What is it worth

Thursday, May 19, 2011


Just finished reading "The Last Lecture" by Randy Pausch. To say it impacted me is to put it mildly.

The shortness of life, the knowledge to know what matters and the desire to grow. Things I think I do, but knowing I can do them better, better for having read Randy's words.

The bible stands far and above in being the book most impacting my life.

The Green Mile- the book; blew me away, good and evil, classic/ingrained. And in the end....evil wins, at least here on earth.

The Last Lecture; an intelligent articulate man of integrity giving his children himself. Pure.

If I have nothing to give, I have yet myself which is far more valuable then all and it is time to give of myself and doing this is acknowledging who I am and loving myself for the goodness that I know of in my heart.

Thanks for listening.

Friday, January 28, 2011

My Amazon Wish List

So I was listening to Ryan Adams on youtube performing "When the Stars Go Blue", and I was listening over and over since I am learning to play it, in fact I am listening now or at least trying to as the song loads via air card 10+ minutes outside of Philly on the Amtrak.
(link to song above)

I had noticed this book earlier, something caught my eye from a good distance and I don't know what it was; was it the title, the cover, something....what was it???

Little Princes-One man's journey to bring home the lost children of Nepal-- My kind of book. A book of meaning of substance, a book that makes a difference about a man who did so.

I had set a reminder in my phone with the book title so that when I was training home it would pop up and I could check it out and it did, while I was listening to stars going blue, over and over. I viewed the book decided I wanted it, but first need to finish the book I am reading and the one in the waiting line.

I went to save the book, save it to my Amazon "wish list" and it was then, scrolling through the 43 items on that wish list that I realized...I may not have time to read all of these books. It was then I realized...time, time, time and you.
Do i know you, have i told you, told you I love you?

I love you.

Peace friend peace

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

take me home

Phil Collins is the type of artist that I have always loathed. He made it successful in the pop world and to me that automatically strikes you from my listening, except I secretly liked him.

In 1985 Phil put out an album called "No Jacket Required" and on it is a song that I find myself singing more times then I care to admit. No it isn't Sussido, thank God, but "Take Me Home" and I think the reason I find myself signing this is I am actually praying/speaking it to God.

I long for crying, no dying, no pain, no more tears....yes, I believe in the good of the God, and I long for it.

Believing in Jesus and heaven is not something I do out of thinking I am imperfect or for reasons of submission; as much as having searched the world, the scholars of the world and the hearts and minds of men and womanI have found few truths of life-- God is one of them.

"The fruit of the righteous is a tree of life, and whoever captures souls is wise." Proverbs 11:30